Tuesday, September 15, 2009

I've seen how far I've come...

Tonight is the first episode of this season of The Biggest Loser. Sometimes it's really hard to see people who are where I was at one point in my life. I'm not saying that I was 400lbs but I was at a point where as much as I acted like I was fabulous, I felt wretched. I looked at myself and tried to make myself believe that I was pretty, talented, funny. Mostly funny. The fat friend is always funny. I finally saw myself and thought, "I have got to change. I have got to do something."
So I did. I cut out all unhealthy foods. I took a look at how much I was actually eating and I trimmed down my portion sizes. And I started exercising. And it turns out, I love it! I love to run and sweat and jump and sweat some more. I saw HUGE results. I lost 60 lbs. my stamina has gone through the roof. I started to see myself as the fabulous, amazing person that God created me to be.
Even through all of that, I still have my days. You know those days. The ones where you hear that voice that says you aren't fabulous. But you know what? That voice is wrong. I am fabulous. I am amazing. And you know what else? You are too. God made you to be a fabulous, fierce individual. And we shouldn't let anyone, anyone tell us otherwise.

This turned out to be way more personal than I intended but I guess I really needed to get that off my chest.


  1. Fabulous and Fierce. Two words I will always use to describe to you, girl! I am so proud of how hard you've worked - you've inspired me to push myself to be better and to see myself as fabulous.

  2. you are SUPER fabulous. I haven't gone through the exact same thing, but the whole post partum thing was really tough, especially since its taken forever to lose all the weight (since i gained waaay more than I should). It is hard getting used to this new body. But it always helps to vent!! thanks for posting this:)

  3. You're amazing, Susie! Way to go and thanks for being open and honest. It's nice hearing other people struggle with the same things I do...not that it's nice you struggle, just that I'm not alone :-).