how many times have you heard people say this? how many times have you said it yourself? i know for myself, i always say that i want to live a life with no regrets. "regret nothing, just take things that don't work out as a life lesson." when i look back on the last year or two of my life, i am filled with what i can only describe as regret. i spent too much time in a situation that was never going to work out, no matter how hard i tried and pushed. i distanced myself from people. i closed myself off to so many things. my mother worried about me (it's ok, it's her job...), i lost friends, i almost lost myself. i don't know if i can say exactly what it was that turned me around, and i don't honestly think i am all the way there. but thank god i can look back and say i'm not that person any longer.
i can't carry anger towards the person i had become. whatever it was that i went through am going through is shaping my future self. i have to let go of the thoughts that keep me trapped inside myself and of the anger i have towards things that are in the past. without doing that, i have no room to love those around me, or as corny as it sounds, to love myself.
i'm not sure what sparked this reflective friday morning post, but it feels good to be writing again.