Tonight is the first episode of this season of The Biggest Loser. Sometimes it's really hard to see people who are where I was at one point in my life. I'm not saying that I was 400lbs but I was at a point where as much as I acted like I was fabulous, I felt wretched. I looked at myself and tried to make myself believe that I was pretty, talented, funny. Mostly funny. The fat friend is always funny. I finally saw myself and thought, "I have got to change. I have got to do something."
So I did. I cut out all unhealthy foods. I took a look at how much I was actually eating and I trimmed down my portion sizes. And I started exercising. And it turns out, I love it! I love to run and sweat and jump and sweat some more. I saw HUGE results. I lost 60 lbs. my stamina has gone through the roof. I started to see myself as the fabulous, amazing person that God created me to be.
Even through all of that, I still have my days. You know those days. The ones where you hear that voice that says you aren't fabulous. But you know what? That voice is wrong. I am fabulous. I am amazing. And you know what else? You are too. God made you to be a fabulous, fierce individual. And we shouldn't let anyone, anyone tell us otherwise.
This turned out to be way more personal than I intended but I guess I really needed to get that off my chest.
Fabulous and Fierce. Two words I will always use to describe to you, girl! I am so proud of how hard you've worked - you've inspired me to push myself to be better and to see myself as fabulous.
ReplyDeleteyou are SUPER fabulous. I haven't gone through the exact same thing, but the whole post partum thing was really tough, especially since its taken forever to lose all the weight (since i gained waaay more than I should). It is hard getting used to this new body. But it always helps to vent!! thanks for posting this:)
ReplyDeleteYou're amazing, Susie! Way to go and thanks for being open and honest. It's nice hearing other people struggle with the same things I do...not that it's nice you struggle, just that I'm not alone :-).
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